Saturday, November 17, 2018

a goodbye letter || i'll miss you


dear people of the blogger world, 

  hello. I've been gone for a month now. In a way I'm sorry, but then, I'm not really.
I just haven't felt like I needed to post. I would think, oh I should really do a blog post. But I never actually wanted to. So I didn't. A couple weeks ago, I decided that I would write this post. But then I ended up with carpal tunnel in my right hand, and typing isn't the best thing for that. So much I needed to get done - blog post, letter to my pen pal, washcloth orders to fill - plus all the regular life stuff, but I couldn't do any of it. I still worked, but my hand would be really sore by the end of the day. And, actually, my hand still gets sore. I'm still wearing the brace for most of the day. But I'm slowly starting to get things done. I still haven't finished that washcloth order, but I'm getting there - knitting only a few rows a day.
  And finally I am sitting down to write this post.  A goodbye letter. 
  Because, yes, I'm leaving. I know I had said I would stick it out till the end of the year, but I just can't. I need a break from blogging. For how long, you ask? I honestly couldn't tell you that. My hope is to come back in a year. Maybe sooner, if I suddenly feel the need to come back.
  Please don't be mad at me, dear followers. I feel bad that I'm leaving. But I do believe I need this. Because, though I know blogging isn't the most important thing in the world, but without actually stepping back and saying, I need a break. I know that in the back of my mind a voice would be telling me to write, to post, to read blog posts, to comment. I wouldn't be able to relax. Breathe.
  Because, it's November. And I still haven't done Septembers Photo Dump. And that bothered me. That's why I'm writing this. So my mind can rest. Knowing that you guys are no longer waiting for that. I am so sorry. I can't really tell you why I'm leaving, I don't really know, I just know that I need to.
  I can't say how sad this is for me, but at the same time, it's refreshing.
  Maybe someday I'll come back. And when I do, I'll come back with a bang. Promise. *winks*
  For those of you who are lucky enough to follow me on Instagram, don't worry, you'll still see what I'm up to. I don't plan on leaving insta.

  I hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving. A wonderful Christmas. A wonderful 2019. A wonderful life. 

  I'll be back. *blows kisses* 
 God Bless, 


Tuesday, October 16, 2018

Beach with the Cousins || I'm Nineteen Now


Thursday, the 11th of October, we headed out on the road. Me in the drivers seat, Chancy in the passengers, and LaKaysha taking up the rear (aka sitting in the back). This was my first time driving anywhere that meant freeway driving. The first time I ever drove anywhere longer than 45 minutes. My first road trip. And we were heading to the beach to join Auntie and Uncle and alllllllll their kids.
I was so nervous the night before. But when I woke up and got ready to go, I was chill. I knew I could do it. And I did.
I drove all the way to Rockaway, OR. Without "adults".
Well. Our first goal was Cannon Beach.


the river.


In Cannon Beach, we met Auntie, Tyrel, Kirsten, Shiloh, Chase, and Kaaren for lunch. We went to a little restaurant for food, and then to the chocolate shop we went to back in April.



After the chocolate shop, Chancy jumped in with Auntie and Kirsten stayed behind with us. We walked out on the beach for a while, looked in a gift shop. But then headed back out on the road to go the rest of the way to Rockaway. This time without a GPS or anything. Just following the signs. But we did it. *winks*



We stopped at view points along the way, and took some pictures. It was a lot of fun, just the three of us, making our way down the coast. And we got some nice pictures too. xP





Once we got to the beach house where Auntie and Uncle were staying, this is what we did. *points at below pic* sat on the bed and watched TV. *laughs*


okay. okay. we went for a walk out on the beach. xP



And the rest of the day was spent just relaxing at the beach house. watching tv and doing nothing.

the next morning we (me, LaKaysha, and Kirsten) walked to a pastry shop and got some breakfast. also got some coffee from the coffee shop, and then walked out on the beach, sipping our morning coffee <33333





And then we went to the Tillamook Creamery. My first time there since I was a kid.
But it wasn't really that cool. Nobody was working so we just looked at the machines. Then some people got in line for cheese tasting. But I don't really like eating cheese by the chunks (even if it is Tillamook xP) So I followed Tyrel and Chancy around the gift shop for a long time.
And I wasn't feeling very good, so didn't get any ice cream. *laughs* I know. I went to Tillamook and I didn't get cheese OR ice cream. I'll just have to go again *winks*

After the creamery we ran some errands, and then stopped at a store and got some beef jerky. (Tillamook makes the best things - even jerky) And then we went back to the house.

(below is the only pic I got on that trip to Tillamook *chuckles*)


At one point during that day, we dragged all the kids out to the beach to take their family pictures. always an adventure *winks*

my sibs <3


trying to take a selfie with Kaaren, but Chancy decides to photo bomb xP 
but Kaaren is a cutie pie <3

with her big brother, Tyrel xP

After the pictures we just "played" on the beach. Kirsten actually jumped in the water. The Pacific Ocean. In October. She's crazzzzy. *ignores the fact that I was actually the odd one because I didn't go in the water* xP


Shiloh, Chancy, and Laban. 


And then everyone was wet. So we ran back and jumped in the hot tub. xP

yummy coffeeeeeeeee

That night we went back to the beach to take silhouette family pictures.
well. first us girls huddled in a whole by a fire, listened to old rock (like Buddy Holly and Elvis Presley), froze to death, and waited for everyone else to come.

the path to the beach










and that night, my Auntie made me strawberry shortcake for my birthday <33333 (also gave me a gift card xP)


and that was the end of our time at the beach with the cousins. the next morning we loaded up and headed home. It was a wonderful time, and I'm so glad I forced myself to drive outside my comfort zone <3

Oh hey! I'm not eighteen anymore!
My birthday was on Sunday (the 14th) and now I'm nineteen. XD